I’ll be frank about how I’m feeling about my disease.
Lately, I have been struggling with feeling overwhelmed about Charcot-Marie-Tooth disease (CMT). I don’t usually let CMT get to me. However, over the past few weeks, I have had mixed emotions about this crazy disease. I can’t pinpoint any specific trigger. Perhaps my feelings result from a combination of recent doctor’s visits, discussions of possible surgery, and the return of minor pain.
I’ve had ongoing issues with my ankle-foot orthoses (AFOs). I’m still struggling to accept that I need to wear them. Yes, I know it has been almost a year, but I’m finding it tough. I think my AFOs are ugly and I’m not convinced they are helping me walk. When I wear them, I feel self-conscious and unattractive. I want to blend in with the crowd, and I don’t want anyone to notice what is on my ankles. I know the AFOs do not define me, but sometimes I feel as if they are all anyone can see.
I do wear shorts and skirts, but I often hide the AFOs. People tell me not to worry what others think and to do what makes me happy. That’s often easier said than done. Some days, I don’t care what others think. But lately, I’m struggling with self-confidence and my belief that this disease has made me less of a person.
I know that rationally, CMT cannot, and should not, define me. But CMT is a part of me, whether I want it to be or not. I guess these feelings are normal. I try so hard to be positive about living with CMT. Perhaps I need time to process the information I’ve received from my doctor and to learn to adapt to changes with my CMT and how these changes affect how I approach everyday tasks.
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