Taking Big Steps in My CMT Journey

Taking Big Steps in My CMT Journey

“Those who have known you for years love you for what is between your ears, not what is on your ankles.”

A dear friend said that to me the day I was fitted for my first pair of ankle-foot orthosis (AFO) braces. I was, and still am, feeling very conflicted about my AFOs. Part of me knows I need them, but that does not make it any easier to accept the fact that I need them. Rationally, I know that using AFOs for CMT has many benefits. I am trying to remember that as I attempt to get used to the carbon fiber braces on my feet. But currently, it is a complicated emotional issue for me.

My AFO journey

I went to the CMT Center of Excellence at The John Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore, Maryland, to see my neurologist, and he said, “Maybe it’s time to look into AFO braces.” He has said this to me many times, but this time, I finally said, “OK, I will.” I am finding it harder to keep my ankles from rolling, and walking is getting more tiring. I let him write the prescription, and I took it home with me. I was not really sure what I planned to do with this piece of paper. After a day or two, I decided I needed to go to a clinic to talk to an orthotist.

After doing some research and talking to fellow CMT patients, I went to the appointment armed with a list of questions and concerns. I knew I had to listen to the orthotist, as he knows more than me about this. He was nice, listened to my concerns, and answered all of my questions. I made it clear that I did not want anything too bulky or heavy. After all, I need to be comfortable wearing these things. We decided on carbon fiber custom-made braces. I left the office, feeling very unsure if this was the right decision for me. As of today, I am still undecided.

Now what?

It’s been about six weeks since I received my custom-made AFO braces. When I picked them up, they did not look anything like we talked about and I could not even walk in them. I held back my tears until I got home — I felt so deflated and angry. I waited a day, then emailed him to express my frustrations. Two days later, I was back in the office, and getting the AFOs adjusted and trimmed.

I picked up the “new and improved” AFO braces a few days later.

  • Am I thrilled with them? Not yet.
  • Are they helping me walk better? Not really sure yet.
  • Am I ready for the world to see them? Nope!

The weird thing is that I cannot hide the fact that I walk funny, but the idea of people seeing the AFO braces really bothers me. I know my awkward gait is noticeable, and I’m not hiding my CMT from anyone. Yet, the idea of people seeing the braces when I wear shorts or skirts makes me very uncomfortable. The idea that it will be out in the open irks me. I try to focus on, “Those you have known you for years love you for what is between your ears not what is on your ankles,” but what about those who don’t know me? Will they focus on what is on my ankles? Will they notice the AFO braces before they notice me? I know I need to not worry about what others think and just do what is best for me. I am working on coming to terms with my emotions and wearing my AFOs. I’m just not there yet.


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  1. Madeleine says:

    I have been wearing AFOs for 40 years. They changed my life! It had become exhausting to walk because I had to concentrate on every step. The AFOs actually propelled me forward. Keep going back to get them adjusted until they feel just right.

    There are definitely ways to camouflage: boots, longer skirts, knee socks with shorts. Keep looking people in the eye and smiling, they won’t even look at your feet!

  2. Linda Jo Nelson says:

    You have come a long way Jill, count each step (in your AFOs) as part of your journey. I know you do not want people to notice braces first, people who matter don’t care about braces, or any other device you use to make life easier, less painful, less tiring. I know you are unhappy about wearing AFOs and having them seen, just know that part of life with a condition like yours (or mine) is ignoring what other people think. It doesn’t matter but increasing your safety and energy does matter. How will we hike without our AFOs! Love them as tools, not as a symbol of your condition or being different.

  3. Cathy says:

    Why do you not want people to see them? I actually only wear skirts or leggings so mine always show. They are awesome! I get complements on how bad ass they look. They help me walk. I worry that sometimes even though someone is disabled they have ableist thoughts created from messages society gives us about the disabled. Fight that and fight it hard. Be proud and use assistive devices to make your life better. I worry that if you cannot tell if they are helping you that something may not be quite right. Talk to your orthotist. They often are not perfect at first fitting and need adjustments. You might need to work to find shoes that you love to wear with them. I have black braces and black booties so I have a nice sleek look that goes together.

    • Jill Price says:

      I think it is self conscious thing for me. I know it is okay if people see them. I just need to get comfortable with the whole idea I am working in it. I am in the process of looking for shoes. It is not easy.

      • Madeleine says:


        Finding shoes remains a challenge. If you find a pair that works, buy two pairs. I have also taken flats to a shoe repair shop to have a thin color-matched elastic strap added (like a mary jane, but it stretches to accommodate my higher instep).

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